I see

I see all these people
Who grew before my eyes
Whom I gave advice
Whom I now look up to
They went exploring
Sailed on an adventure
Of a thousand sounds
Of a thousand colors
I stayed in my bubble
My interests, my world
I see them rushing past me
Why can't I be like them?
But easy time is over
And now I must suffer
I waited too long and now it's too late
Can't go back and change it all
Wish I could...
I see them blossom
In their progress
I see my thoughts bloom
With ever increasing darkness
Their shadows tower over me
And for them, I am happy
But I fear
I may never make it there
The reason why I started
Will be the reason why I quit
If I can't find any help soon
My despair will be too great to sooth.